
She is alone. Desperately alone. He left her there unclothed. All curled up, she tries to cover and protect what is left of her. She faces the blue wall, her back to the door. She fears he will come back. She fears he won’t.
She doesn’t remember when her legs start working again and how she gets up from that bed and into his car to be taken home. But she gets there. She survives this day and all of the days that come to continually test her capabilities. This brave young warrior emerges from the pain she routinely faces and carries on. Again and again and again.
She grows up and begins to make a life for herself far away from the hurtful places. Joy finds its way into her heart again as she creates new memories to layer on top of the painful past ones. She begins to believe that she can bury her past deep down far enough that it can no longer touch her – no longer haunt her – no longer hurt her. But it doesn’t seem to work that way.
A simple sight, sound, or smell takes her right back to those buried places. It awakens everything inside of her, intertwining past and present until she can no longer distinguish the two. Unable to untangle this mess on her own she seeks the help of heroes trained to help her. Over time they help her find words to describe all that she has experienced. For a long time these words feel separate from her, as if she is telling someone else’s story.
Then one day her own shaky voice begins to speak. This young girl simply wishing to impress her coach steps forward and begins to tell her story. Her words feel like aching truth clawing out from within. What she sees – what she feels – all that she begins to express are words she has never both spoken out loud and truly felt before. Her fears, confusion, and shame begin to have a place outside of her own imprisoned mind.
She is not asked to change her story. She is not asked to minimize or omit parts that feel too vile to be spoken. She is not pulled from her experiences and from her truth to fabricate a rescue that never occurred. Instead, as she describes each detail that she can still deeply feel, she is offered the kind of comfort that never existed before. She is offered what she needed in the moments after what she has just described – in those moments where her naked body laid curled up on his bed all alone. Here she is offered a blanket and a protective presence to sit beside her and keep a careful watch on the door.
She feels strangely protected by this new image infused into her own painful reality. What happened to her in those moments before as well as the days, months, and years that follow cannot be changed for her. But in this moment, with a hero’s guidance by her side, a profoundly powerful and transformative breath of safety occurs for this young girl in his bedroom. In this brief moment she no longer feels alone.
She is incredibly brave.
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Sending you all the love in the world. x
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💗thank you for this💗
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She’s an amazing warrioress! Sending you lots of love and light, Sara! 💖💐🌹
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Thank you for reading and for sharing this kindhearted comment. I really appreciate it. 💕
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You’re most welcome 🙂
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What an incredible post, dearest Sara. Raw, authentic, powerful, tremendously sad, and filled with so much hope, love, light, and strength, that I feel honored to be in this post and your presence. You are an amazing human being, and we are all blessed to know you. Much love to you, my dear friend. ❤️❤️
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Thank you, Jeff. Your words are deeply appreciated and heartfelt. 💕
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You’re most welcome. Sara. Is my complete pleasure. 🥰
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This was such a powerful post. Thank you for sharing it.
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Thank you! 💕
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So much power and pain throughout this piece. Lots of hugs and love to you my friend ❤️❤️❤️❤️
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Thank you, Diana. Your heartfelt words mean a lot. 💕
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A truly powerful and brave post. Art is such a healing force, thanks for sharing this deeply emotional and painful experience. Look forward to exploring more of your blog, Sara.
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Thank you for visiting and for your thoughtful comment. I couldn’t agree more. Art is a powerful healing force. 💕💕
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It takes courage to express and move forward. This is a sad but inspiring piece. May the days to come outnumber the days of hurt. God bless.
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Thank you for these heartfelt words. 💕
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